So the anger comes
mixed with sadness,
numbing out the tears.
Stay strong, you can do
this, don’t show the world
the bleeding wounds of grief.
Overwhelmed by stuff,
finding the perfect place
to donate or give his things.
As if he would care.
How do you honor what
he put his life energy into?
How could he leave me?
I loved him so much. But Death
takes no notice of such things.
This is the irrational time—
the feelings come, and I know
will go in their own time, but really
couldn’t they just leave now?
Oh, Yes…..
Love you much.
You are moving through the stages of grief. It takes time. Thinking of you.
Keep on allowing yourself to experience each moment deeply. Don’t try to curtail any of these feelings. You will be greatly blessed.
You might consider honoring it by giving what things remain to people who also value what he valued such as books. In addition, you might consider putting as much life force into honoring what you value as much as is humanly possible, just as he has done.. It keeps occurring to me that you are transforming by INTEGRATING what he has lived out with what you have to live out. The evolution of love is what I call it. Your legacy of love is what is to be honored. As I strongly believe, your relationship with Joseph remains present with his physical absence. Your body holds all the truth. BE WITH IT THERE. I love you both very much.